20 days of Refocusing

So far it's been about twenty days of refocusing. Refocusing my energy, my time, my thoughts, and my priorities. I've been spending time thinking about what is most important to me. 


I've come to realise I've been putting to much pressure on myself to craft and create for other people's enjoyment, for Instagram and for YouTube. I want to create for my own enjoyment and then share it to share that creativeness with others. Rather than creating in order to have things to share, I'll be focusing on creating for what I love to do. This will probably mean I'll be posting less often than I have in the past, especially as I have a few other things I'll be spending my time and energy on. But I'll still be around of course! 

Lately, I'm loving buying high-quality yarns over cheap yarns. This, of course, means spending a bit more money, but I'm intending to create items I'll love and actually use, or be able to gift to specific people. Instead of jumping on every second Crochet Along I see.

Physical Health

This month I've been getting back into running! I don't know why I stop for so long each time, because every time I start it up again I do enjoy it. If you're looking to get started with running I'd recommend a program like the C25k (Couch to 5km) or something similar. Getting started is the hardest part, then just commit to running 2 or 3 times per week. Even though I hadn't run since October last year, I was able to run 2.5km on my first run back. (Previously I was running up to about 5km each time, so I'm not a long distance runner by any means)

I also now have my bike set up to ride to work, which I've done a few times already. It's only 3km, so not an unreasonable distance for someone who hasn't ridden for years! The ride there is a bit of a challenge, but the ride home after a full day of work is lovely. I pretty much just roll home!

Additionally, Matt and I been making it a habit to be in bed between 9:30 and 10 pm each night, as much as we're able. Ask me five years ago and I would have thought this was ridiculous! But it has been great. We're both really enjoying having a regular sleep schedule, and we're usually getting up at 6 am, giving us a bit of extra time in the morning to get things happening.

Spiritual Health

For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come.
— 1 Timothy 4 v 8

Even more importantly than my physical health, I've also been making my spiritual health a priority. Along with waking a bit earlier each day, I've been spending some time reading the bible. Specifically, at the moment, I am reading through the book of John. It has been great to explore the divinity of Jesus Christ and the salvation we receive through joining God's family.

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.
— John 14 v 1-4

Mental Health

I have been struggling a little with my mental health over the last couple of months. Nothing major, so no need to be worried. I've just been feeling stuck in a bit of a rut. This is the main motivation for my month of refocusing. I realise I spend a lot of my energy on things that are, ultimately, not all that important.

I'm planning on being more aware of how much time I'm spending online, especially the scrolling type apps, such as Facebook, Instagram, and Pinterest. I can easily lose a couple of hours to these things, and they're not necessarily helpful.

I've also been listening to a few audiobooks, one is The Life-Changing Magic Of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo, which has some good thoughts, and others which have annoyed me, to be quite honest. But I like the ultimate sentiment. If something doesn't bring you joy, why are you keeping it? It's also good to keep this in mind when buying new things, I like to keep the clutter down.

A second audiobook I've just started listening to is Refresh: Embracing a Grace-Paced Life in a World of Endless Demands by Shona and David Murray. This particular book is aimed at Christian women, the men's version is called Reset. I've only just started this one, so I'll withhold any comments for the moment. But it's a lot of things I've been thinking about anyway - refocusing how you spend your time, in response to the grace of Jesus Christ.

Recently, I particularly enjoyed attending a women's conference in my area (where I heard about the above book) in which we heard from the Old Testament book of Ecclesiastes. Ecclesiastes is often thought of as a fairly depressing book...

What do people gain from all their labours at which they toil under the sun?
Generations come and generations go, but the earth remains forever.
The sun rises and the sun sets, and hurries back to where it rises.
The wind blows to the south and turns to the north; round and round it goes, ever returning on its course.
All streams flow into the sea, yet the sea is never full.
To the place the streams come from, there they return again.
All things are wearisome, more than one can say.
The eye never has enough of seeing, nor the ear its fill of hearing.
What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.
Is there anything of which one can say, “Look! This is something new?”
It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time.
No one remembers the former generations, and even those yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow them.
— Ecclesiasts 1 v 3-11

A lot of the book continues in this general style. Nothing lasts, everything is circular, where do we find meaning? Everything is meaningless, or vanity, a "chasing after the wind". That is, it's pointless, you cannot catch the wind, so why bother chasing it?

But the whole book isn't so negative. Despite the cyclical nature of things, not matter how stuck in a rut we feel, there is always some joy to be found.

So I commend the enjoyment of life, because there is nothing better for a person under the sun than to eat and drink and be glad. Then joy will accompany them in their toil all the days of the life God has given them under the sun.
— Ecclesiastes 8 v 15

The book concludes with what is most important, the fear of the Lord. Now to "fear God" doesn't mean to be afraid of him. It is a healthy respect, where we treat him as Lord of our lives and follow his rule. If you're interested, I'd definitely recommend a read through Ec 

Now all has been heard; here is the conclusiong of the matter:
Fear God and keep his comandments, for this is the duty of all mankind.
— Ecclesiates 12 v 13

If you're interested, I'd definitely recommend a read through Ecclesiastes. It may sound depressing in parts, but there is a lot of wisdom in there.

Looking forward, I'll continue to reassess what I spend my time on, and refocus my energy and thoughts on the Lord. I'll eat and drink and be glad, I'll hold onto the things that spark joy, and I'll look after my mind, body, and spirit.